Stressed ! Do all I can to work on situations swirling in my life to push them into an upswing. It is very hard to do and very few seem to understand my view(photo stock. can’t wait to make love again)
Whether it is the stress, my age, or hormones…..OMG…… I so miss sex. I find myself I find myself pulsing with desire to feel my man’s hardness spreading inside me. Is that TMI? Well, most are lying if they say they have not had the same feelings and desires to confess them to someone.
I try not to think about it but, find my thoughts drifting of how his hands would softly touch all over me as he would marvel at my body and reactions like he had never had the experience before. The way he looked at me, taking in each moment and each move and watch and hearing him respond. Ohhhh to hear him right now being pleased.
ok ok. Don’t want to gross out any readers. lol.
So many boring and hard issues I am working with makes me crave some fun and adventure but the closest I can get to it is to immerse myself into books. So many good ones inspiring me to work on my current book more often.
Readers what is going on in your life. Please do distract me.
I have never been one to set goals. Probably because i tend to procrastinate and don’t want to let myself or anyone else down by not achieving the goal.
Anyway, I keep telling myself I am gonna get on all the goals I tried to set to get done while my sweet Rome is in Africa for a year but, it seems he knew me better then I knew myself. He chuckles and says “that is wonderful honey, but if you do decide to work at it then do it for yourself cause i am good with you now.” When he said this i was kind of offended but now when i look back i have to laugh because i may have set my expectations to high and I am glad he was okay that I did not have to do all those high goals. I have not given them up so much as been easier on myself to work towards things I want and more realistic.
Anyway, Rome and I have now been married about 5 and half years and this year he has been gone has been a little bit of a test. I did not know what it would be like to be without him for a year but, I think we are growing as a couple in having to be more creative in communication and knowing each other and trusting each other. I can say it has made our sex life skyrocket (tmi alert) with experimenting in flirting and pleasing each other long distance and opened communication to what we both feel we want and need. I feel good about how we accept each others strengths and weaknesses.
I want to make closer friendship in my life though —I do admit i am not very good socially and fear reaching out or asking for company. However, i am thankful for the online friends i have made most of which are facebook, twitter or friends met on social platform second life.
As time gets closer to my hubby possibly getting to come home I get more excited and have begun to prepare things like learning some cooking and getting some sexy things to wear that he may like. For a shy girl this is a huge step. lol. BTW ladies what is the best way to remove hair from the (you know) area? He would be over the moon excited about that. grins.
Issac (my son) is not at all liking the idea of that reunion saying i will be hanging at friends house for a few days. laughs.
Anyway, just an update.
Shhhh! Roman — I plan to seduce him tonight. It has been a week since my husband and I could be completely intimate. I plan on making it happen tonight. It is a fantastic stress buster. I would not be bringing it up if it wasn’t for the fact that sex has been getting better lately. I think we are really learning what makes it good for each other. I am so blessed to have a man that cares what we are each going through and we both equally want to please each other. The last time we made love was so passionate – like melting butter but, with a surging excitement that made me never want to come down and rest. I love the new blanket we bought it is like being cuddled in animal fur (not real fur). I like the way it feels on our bare skin and it warms me when I am too exhausted not to drift off to sleep.
On another note. I have been conflicted all day. Tomorrow I am suppose to attend classes. I need to do some studio time however, I was invited to attend a funeral. The people that are related to the deceased were like a second family to me when I was young. I used to feel so close to them but, now I do not really have any connection to them anymore. I am not sure whether I should go to the funeral or to class. It would effect my grade to miss class but, I don’t want to hurt the friends that were good to me in former years either. I am still deciding.
Are you bored? Well if you want something to watch check out “30 days” on netflix or hulu. It is really interesting. For a month someone has to try out what it would be like in someone else’s situation.
Should I go to school or the funeral? hmmmm.